Did I Give Up.....No I Don't Think So!

So this is what I looked like about 6 years ago! I was in my 20's and everything was going really well, or at least I thought. I found out around 22 or 23 I had Bipolar Disorder and things went down hill from there.

This is what I look like now! Notice the difference? I sure do and to be honest, I don't like it. I do not like it one bit.

Let me tell you the story of how I went from being 125lbs to a pound over 200. I would like to say that life just caught up with me and that I just let myself go, but that would not totally be true. You see, when I was about 24 or 25 I started taking a drug called Seroquel XR. For those who do not know it is an anti psychotic drug. I was going thorough a lot then. I was hearing voices, seeing shadows and felt that someone was out to kill me. Needless to say, my husband was having a hard time dealing with this just as much as I was. So my doc thought that particular med would be good for me. What he fail to mention was that I would gain about 45 to 50lbs while taking them. Not something that I felt he should have left out. So, while I was on them I started to notice my clothes becoming a bit snug and things were not fitting like they use to.


So I joined Weight Watcher to get the weight off. Well each week I would weigh in, and I would gain about 1lb maybe even 3lb for the week. At the end off the month I realized that I had gained 20lbs for the month. I never thought it was the meds, just thought that I was not doing the plan right or I was not putting my best foot forward when it came down to working out. I mean I was giving it my all but nothing change. So month 2 came and went and about another 20-25lb was added and that when I started questioning my meds. Yes, I was eating my normal amount of food, but I had not increased it at all. The same diet I was on when I started the pills was the same diet I was on when I gain all the weight. So when I called my doc to find out more on the pills he explains to me that they do cause major weight gain but they are good meds for bipolar.


Ok so I am about 175lb now and I am losing my mind. In two months my whole body was changed forever. I felt like there was nothing I could do. But then I thought, why don't I just stop taking the drugs and find a new solution so my problem. So we found another drug, Geodon and it worked almost as well, but there was some weight gain with it to, just not as much! I thought problem solved. Now my next step was how do I get all this weight off.


Well 2 years I tried half heartily to give it my all. Then a couple of years I just said this is the way life just has to be and I did nothing at all, but I gain more weight. Finally, I thought I would give it one more try and I lost 13lbs, but that didn't help because going into the next year 2008, I started to get tired and I stopped again.


Later I found out I was 5 months pregnant, so there went that. I gain about 15lbs with baby and I lost a few pounds after birth, but I have gained more with the birth control pills. Lord will this ever end. I have leveled off and I am back at it again, so we will see what this year holds. Wish me luck, I sure need it.